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Well, now the nation can breathe a sigh of relief. Alex has been removed from the Big Brother house. The one-woman font of bad feeling took her permanent sulking that bit too far on Wednesday, after she found out that the rest of the housemates didn't appreciate her 'guidance' on, well, just about everything she could think of. They remembered she told them.
Oh, Alex. I suppose I knew, deep down, that you weren't going to change. The problem really lay with your inability to forgive and forget past arguments, meaning that anyone who hadn't tip-toed around you (hello, Sylvia!) had a black mark against them for the rest of their time in the house, and, if your remarks were to be believed, the rest of their lives. Your quickness to take offence and worrying desire to control the behaviour of everyone around you presumably makes you difficult to live with both in and out of the house. You certainly did 'keep it real', but that counts for little when that reality isn't very pleasant. Rex (your nemesis) had it right when he saw you as having the power to dry up conversations when you entered the room, as other housemates were starting to be intimated by your very presence, as the only predictable thing about your temper was that it would be sparked by the most innocuous of remarks.
The only person who couldn't see this was you, trapped as you were in your own little bubble of righteous anger. If only everyone would see things your way. If only everyone would follow your orders, then the house would be a better place. Hadn't you watched BB before, Alex? The one thing you could be sure of is that most housemates would have opinions every bit as strong as yours, and part of the challenge of the programme is to live amongst these people without consistently losing your cool.
Considering your effect on other housemates, then, it was unwise for you to make remarks about your 'gangster friends', talk about your plans when you got outside the house, and, just to top things off, impersonate gunshots. Actually, no, not unwise. Really fucking stupid. The trouble is, though, you're not very good at considering the effects of your actions on others. Your justifications for your behaviour centred on you claiming you were only addressing Darnell (and you also mentioned Dale a bit later), and that you were saying those things in an innocent context. Well, this is debatable, and other housemates that were in the room certainly seemed to feel threatened; after all, this wasn't the first time you had made remarks towards one housemate whilst seemingly talking to another. Even Darnell appeared to assume that you were making some kind of threat. You also made the (reasonable) point that if you'd been serious, you were unlikely to have incriminated yourself on national TV, and accused BB of taking your remarks out of context. The trouble is, BB DID take them in context; the overall effect of your behaviour whilst you were in the house on other housemates, and, viewed in that context, they start to sound downright sinister.
It's a shame in some ways that you couldn't have been evicted, as there would have been a catharsis for both the housemates and the general public, many of whom have been yelling at the screen for you to shut the fuck up once in a while and lighten up. But your remarks caused a real dilemma for BB; do they assume you're joking, and let the eviction go ahead (you were going, let's face it), or do they take your threats seriously, and consider the security implications of your mates turning up at the eviction, toting guns? It isn't BB's job to decide what you may or may not have meant; they have to go on what you say, put against your track record. And so you're out, presumably having learnt nothing from your experience, which is a real shame, as you have a lot to learn, despite your conviction that you knew more than anyone else in there. A tough life does not equal an enlightening one, and you really should think long and hard about the fact that every other housemate, including Steph, appear to be less childish than yourself. Remember they taught you.